I’m really agitated right now.

A stock I’m investing in is not behaving.

Thought I timed the drop well.

Guess I didn’t.

Right after I went all in because it was rising significantly, it turned around and plummeted. It dropped to it’s lowest point of the day, and left me immediately in a deficit.

No big deal.

Seen this before.

It endlessly swings up and down like this.

But when that frustration of misjudgement hits?

Anxiety hits too.

In the past when this kind of anxiety came over me, I would run to my computer. I would pull up my favorite porn site, and begin to search for someone to get off on.

Today?

Sure I feel that urge.

But now I am in control of it.

Does that mean I won’t masturbate?

Not necessarily.

I no longer have any sense that it would be wrong to do so, or that I would have to feel less about myself either. It’s just that now if I choose to do so I’m actually the one choosing, instead of being compelled to.

In the past?

Not so much.

I really was led about by my urges.

I had to masturbate.

I had no choice.

It was like I was totally automated!

Now when I feel that urge and realize I can masturbate, I also have another realization. Truth be told? I’d rather be making love, and enjoying the experience with an actual partner.

If you struggle with porn?

What you are really struggling with is your FEELINGS.

You haven’t learned to be alright.

To sit with those.

That it is okay to experience negative.

Sometimes its stress, and sometimes its anxiety, and sometimes it’s just plain boredom. Whenever you feel something you don’t enjoy, you know by masturbating you can quickly change that feeling – at least temporarily.

Of course when you do?

You find out pretty quickly.

It is only a temporary fix.

Like any other fix it doesn’t last.

And you end up feeling worse than when you started.

When I help you overcome porn addiction, part of what I teach you is to learn to process these feelings. There is absolutely nothing wrong in your life, that you feel this way at all.

Life is not a “bowl of cherries” as they say.

Your emotional weather will always fluctuate.

What you need to learn?

You can weather each storm.

You can come out the other side stronger than you now are.

Need some help with this? Hit me up!

What do you say? Would you like to finally get control of your self so if you masturbate to porn, it’s because YOU decide to, and not because you HAVE to?