It’s odd to me with the arrival of Spring?
To not be anticipating a breakup.
Before you get too happy for me though?
It’s because the breakup already happened (I think) late last year.
For the first three years of a wonderful relationship with Cool Girl the breakups landed each Spring time annually. For whatever reason at those times she needed to leave and each time I respected her choice and just let her go.
I didn’t even write about breakup Number 3.
But I did really good weathering it.
As I mentioned to you a few months ago now?
Breakup Number 4 has been quite a DOOZIE though.
I don’t blame Cool Girl at all for any of this, though I’m not sure she believes me. She had a terrible circumstance hit for her and it was all she could do to try to keep herself together it seems.
I hold her no animosity at all.
I just regret that this THING came into the picture.
It became for her a personal hell.
I suspect eventually she just decided to spare me.
That was way back at the end of November now and yes for my friends who know me this one I’m publishing is current. For those of you who don’t know me personally, I often publish things I wrote much more than a year ago.
So here I am in “radio silence” land.
Still giving her the space she “requested.”
Still hopeful if she clears what’s gone on?
She will once again reach out and reconnect with me.
I want you to know in no uncertain terms that Cool Girl is absolutely amazing. Before she left this time she even apologized to me for not living up to the “pedestal” I put her on.
“I didn’t pedestal you at all.”
“I know who you are.”
“I understand what this thing has done to you.”
I guess these reassurances of my love just weren’t enough to convince her so far. But that’s okay because as you know I hold a permanent open door policy.
Yes my dear you are still COOL to me.
I love you and miss you cutie!
As always I hope you do what is best for you.
All I want ever is for you to be happy!
How about you? Do you have someone special in your life who doesn’t believe you when you say you love them and what would you do to prove this to them if you didn’t have a blog to tell them like I do?